Today I woke up feeling great about the day. I had things planned, etc. There were some bills to pay, one, in particular, was way past due (like 6 months) and i needed to call them. I apologized and explained to them why i had forgotten to pay this bill...Olivia. I burst into tears! I have not done this on the phone before, i could hardly talk! I felt so dumb. They were very kind, but i couldn't believe it. I just broke down. It was really weird to me.
I imagine this type of thing is normal under my cirumstance. I just didn't expect it. For hours after, I would just sob in spurts and then be fine. In my support group, we have talked about how odd grieving can be. How you can talk to one person and be completely fine with it, and then some people you just can't control emotions. I guess i have been a bit emotional lately. I hate that!