Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Christmas Eve

Most every year we spend Christmas Eve at my parents house. I married into an established family and many of Matt's siblings are grandparents and have their own little families, so we have Kunz family parties usually a few days before or after Christmas. Takes the stress off :)
My parents house is like walking into Mr. and Mrs. Claus house. My mom is the queen of Christmas decor. It's cozy and comfortable and my mom always has tons of goodies and food laid out for us to munch on.
We like to mix it up a bit every year and play reindeer games...Aren't they awesome reindeer? We had my cousin, Heather, over this year too. We don't see her too often, so it's always a treat to see her happy face. She is a goofball like the rest of us and came dressed in Christmas attire, ugly sweater included :)

This year, I surprised my siblings and dad with finishing my Grandma Dot's quilts...with the help of my mom. (My sister, Corinne and her quilt, are missing from this photo. She was with her kids in Utah and wasn't able to join us for Christmas.)

I really wanted to surprise the WHOLE family, but I knew I couldnt get all the quilts finished in time. My grandmother was a pretty spectacular lady. I'll have to find a picture of my grandparents to post. She made all of her 50 some-odd grandchildren a quilt. They were not all completed, I'm not sure who got finished ones and who got scraps. We got scraps and partially finished tops. I helped her with one when I was about 13. It had the little prairie bonnet girls on it.

Her quilts mean a lot to us. We didn't get much in the way of material things after she died, but have lots of memories of her and my grandpa. Each of the quilt tops we recieved were either completely hand stitched or had some hand stitching done on them. I loved the material she used on some of them. My dad said he recognized some of it from other projects she had done.

I still have mine to finish. That is my project for January...maybe I'll get it done before my birthday :) I hope that each of my cousin's will be able to get their quilt finished or those with finished quilts, realize how much work my grandmother put into them. I would be interested in knowing who didn't recieve a quilt, because it seems that we were sent an extra. I will happily finish it and send it off to a cousin who didn't get one. Please let me know :)

hi

I know, I am such a blog slacker. I admit it. I really have had a lot going on...more than just the holidays. Our weather today consists of a foot of snow, so I knew I had no place to go and even though my house is a mess, I just really wanted to sit at my computer and write instead of clean.
I put up this basket for our winter gear. This is a clean picture of it all. Right now, it's piled high with winter coats, lots of boots, and the ocasional outdoor toy that the little girl brings in.
I love days like today. I think I was made to live in the Northwest, summer's are pretty mild and winters can be long and cold :)
I have about 3 other posts to write rather than 1 long post. I don't want my blog to go to pot. I have had many emails from people I don't know who said that my blog has been helpful/a blessing/and inspiring. I want to keep it that way :) I want people to know that there is good that comes from our trials. I want this blog to be real.
I hope 2011 brings inspiration and happiness to me.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Yay! I can now blog from my phone :) hopefully I can keep up on this little blog of mine...
Testing...

Sunday, November 14, 2010

3 years

Last Thursday marked 3 years since Olivia was born...and then died in my arms just short of two hours later.
I had gotten a lot of tears out early on in the week and did okay when the day actually came. Last week was a bit of a crazy week. With Sarah's birthday Tuesday, our sealing anniversary Wednesday along with my little sister finding our she was miscarrying and a great nephew being born, Thursday was Olivia's birthday and another great nephew was born. See, I told you it was crazy.
We were expecting snow last week too (which never came) so we went out the cemetery on Monday to plant flower bulbs. Early on Monday, my parents went and straightened Olivia's headstone and cleaned up the area a little. Cody and Melissa, Mackenzie's parents, had come out some time earlier and put the rocks around the girls plot.
My parents bought her balloons and brought apples from their tree.Sarah said hello to her. She loves to stand right above her and ring her chimes. My grubby little Brinley starting to dig holes for the bulbs.Melissa and Kennady met us out there to help plant bulbs for Olivia and Mackenzie. She was also smart enough to bring something to dig holes with.Then Julie came out with her kidlings and helped plant some bulbs too while the babies rearranged the apples and rocks. I hope that people don't mind that my Sarah climbs on the heastones around the cemetery.It was a grand little party :)

Melissa and I took our girls on a short trip to Seattle on Thursday night and got back Friday night. It was a needed trip and I have pictures and a post dedicated to it. I have a lot to say about last week, I just haven't had a chance to sit and write about it. So, my goal this week is to get some posts written.

Monday, November 8, 2010

yellow

we have been looking for a table to fit our teeny tiny 'dining room' ever since we moved into our little home. Last week, my sister Julie found this cute vintage table at a thrift shop, but the price tag...OUCH! Lucky for me, the next day was 1/2 off day. And I got it for a bargain. THANK YOU my bargain hunting, thrift shopping, deal finding sister! It needs to be cleaned and so does my floor...yuck. I scraped about 60 years worth of food from in-between where the table leaf goes (and the leaf came with the table) It was really gross.
It fits perfectly! These tables were obviously built for the houses of the 50's. We haven't been able to sit as a family at our table since Sarah was born.
One of my plates broke...sad day. I am on the look out for a replacement.

birthday time

today is Sarah's 2nd birthday.
we celebrated yesterday after church with some family and taco soup, cake and ice cream.
she loves to walk around the house neighing so we had a little horse party. never again will I go to the 50% off card shop for special balloons. Holy Moses. They are expensive! did you know that yokes carries a great assortment of balloons at almost HALF the price? Don't mind my disgusting kitchen counter please. Always such a lovely backdrop, don't you think? I made the number 2 with some scrap fabric and ironed it on to her shirt, which is actually pink, not red. she loved all of her gifts!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

the little ones

I get asked a lot on what it is I actually do at the hospital when I go to photograph sweet little babies. Most of the time I am just there to photograph. I'm in the room as a silent guest, not part of the conversation or the goings on, unless I am asked to be. But there are times when I do more. I am able to help relieve the hospital staff from doing prints and molds. And then there are the times when I get to help bathe and dress the babies and those times are a little more sacred.
Most commonly, the babies are stillborn. Usually in the weeks of 20-34. Amazing people make gowns and outfits for these little babies because they are TINY and you can't buy clothes for them. The smallest diapers the hospital provides are way too big. Most of the time they don't put a diaper on the baby. It's difficult to take photos of the feet because they give the babies 'frog legs' and we have to undo the diaper to get the photos.
A good friend of mine who's daughter, Grace, died of the same thing as Olivia, Polycystic Kidney Disease, made her little Grace a diaper. She was born at 32 weeks and her diaper fit.
I had been trying to think of something more that parents can have to take home with them. I had searched the internet for doll diaper patterns, and nothing really seemed to fit what I was looking for. So I made my own pattern in 2 sizes and so far they have been perfect. the smallest if the diapers fit 20 weekers. the biggest fits 34 weekers.

When I have shown these to people in person, they are amazed that a baby can wear such a tiny diaper, but they do.
If you need a good service project, I recommend these. They are simple and easy to make and they will make photographing the tiny babies easier and give parents one more thing. I am happy to get you instructions and the pattern through email or leave a comment and I hope to post it on my blog as soon as I get the pattern scanned in.
(If you know of any places that sell tiny teddy bears, maybe 3-4 inches in size would you let me know? Yes? Awesome!)

i'm a little bit crazy.

October has been a crazy month.
My house is a disaster right now and it has been for a week. I volunteered myself to make the class quilt for the school silent auction...what was I thinking. Making Brinley's Halloween costume, the Halloween parties, volunteering at the hospitals, volunteering at school, the meetings I attend, the callings I have at church and the photography business, and just being a mom...it just wasn't enough for me, so why not throw in making a quilt. Actually, I quite enjoyed it. So much that I forgot to get any good photos of it, which means I will have to get photos of it at the school on Friday, before they display it for the auction. :(
We have been doing lots of fun stuff this month too.
Grandma Lana had a Halloween party at her house. The kids decorated cookies and made their own pizzas.

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We went to the pumpkin patch too. Twice actually. The first day was a bust. Brinley was out of school for Parent Teacher Conferences, but it was rainy and muddy and Sarah fell just as we got out of the car. I had my niece, Chloe, with me also. It's hard to run after a couple of almost two year olds in mud. These pictures are from the second trip.

I'm such a dork.

The 'three little girls' were a handfull.
Busy. Busy. Little. Girls. We don't recommend having babies with your sisters. When you have family events, nobody wants to play with your baby cause they have their own. Just kidding. Having babies with your sisters is awesome!
I'm sure these stinkers will be best friends. And why walk when your mom can pull you and your pumpkins around.
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October 15th is National Pregnancy and Infant Death Awareness Day. We took balloons and apples out to Olivia and Mackenzie. I still need to fix Olivia's headstone. I would like to get it done before the snow falls, which won't be long.

Since Olivia and Mackenzie share a plot, I had a little plaque made for Mackenzie until her headstone is placed. I didn't realize how small each of the girls spots are. We have plans this Spring for making them look nice. I'll have to get the bulbs planted as soon as possible though.

That night we drove to Coeur d'Alene to release balloons for our babies. We had three. One for our Olivia. One for my great nephew, Christian. One for my great niece, Makenzie.

It was really beautiful and we will be doing it again next year.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

I should be:
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editing photos
cleaning the house
doing laundry
mowing up the leaves
vacuuming/sweeping the floors
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Instead, I am:
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picking up Brinley early from school and heading to Greenbluff with my family
carving pumpkins
making pizza
decorating cookies
watching Halloween movies
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The other stuff can wait till tomorrow, right?