Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and since I don't want to be at my computer all day writing about what and who I am thankful for, I thought I would do it now. So here is my list of thanks...
My little family: Matt, Brinley and Olivia...for all that they have taught me. Matt, for being such a wonderful, hard working, sincere, big bear of a husband. I know that we were meant to be together. Brinley, I couldn't get through my days without you. You are my little Sunshine. You tell the best jokes and you tell me at least twenty times a day that you "surely love me."
Olivia, because I truly have a testimony of the gospel now. I have no doubt that I will see you again. You have made me want to be a better person...mother and wife.
My family: When I say family, I mean everyone I am related to (including the Kunz side). I can't even begin to tell you how supportive and and helpful you have been through the pregnancy and birth and everything that has come since. I don't know where to start with this...you all mean so much to me and all that you have done for me has been amazing. Julie, for taking Brinley so many times that I am sure she needs her own room there. My parents, for your amazing talents in building and sewing and for loving me so much. Matt's parents, for putting up with us living upstairs and for being patient with me on my bad days. Ami, for letting Matt hang out with you and for making us a lot of bread, among other things. All of those who don't live too close, I know you prayed for our family and put our names on so many prayer rolls, that meant so much to us. We know that you love us.
Friends: For all the prayers and love and support...and meals. For wanting to help when I couldn't think of anything for you to do. For helping with Brinley. For GNO's. For having blogs that I could read. For letting me borrow books and puzzles. For knowing that if I needed to call you at 2 in the morning, you wouldn't mind. Karen, for taking pictures, having long talks about our children, and having such an awesome family that is so talented.
Doctors, Nurses, Counselors, Etc.: For being so compassionate. For helping us get through such a hard experience. For knowing what was wrong. For answering so many questions. Heather Roberts, for having such a wonderful program that gave us so much to remember Olivia by and for being there at her birth, the timing couldn't have been better. Your an amazing friend. To Sarah and Sara, for giving me some understanding to my feelings and being able to know what I have to deal with in the next year. Heather Evans, for taking incredible photos of our baby. To Dr. Barrong, who knew what he was doing, for being sympathetic and kind. I will refer people to you!
The Gospel: For knowing that I have an eternal family. For knowing my Heavenly Father loves me. For knowing that Christ gave his life for me so that I can see Olivia again. For being able to teach my daughter about Jesus and seeing her be so excited about "Hamly Foam Evening" (Family Home Evening). For not doubting that Olivia's life had a purpose and was meant to be short with us here on earth and that she is with her Great-Grandparents, her cousin Christian, her friend Sierra and so many others in heaven.
Baths: Need I say more...okay, because of those days where I needed to have time to myself and I locked the bathroom door and I could relax and watch Olivia move and feel like I got to know her a little bit better.
Waterproof Mascara: because I cry...a lot. 'Nuff said.
Millwood School: For Brinley's teachers, Kathy, Jill, Diane, etc., because you have been so good to her. She loves you guys! For teaching Brinley all those new songs and letting her paint and helping her with numbers and letters. For understanding our situation and having a place for her to have fun when I am not so much.
Babies: For those that are pregnant or just had a baby, I am thankful that your babies are healthy. That your pregnancies were/are without difficulty. That you can hold your child close. That you can't sleep at night because they are hungry or need a change, not because you miss them so much. I am thankful you don't have to go through what I am going through...
And so many other things...I just can't write about everything and everyone. Please know that every one of you are on my list of thanks!
I love you all!