Friday, September 28, 2007
When we found out about the baby having so many problems, my parents really wanted to do something for us. So my Dad, who can build anything, asked if it would be okay if he could build the casket. Of course! I just wasn't sure that he could actually finish it...building something like this for a grandchild, well, I just wasn't sure. When we would go over to my parents, I would go and check on the progress of it, not an easy thing to do in our situation, especially when you are staring at a tiny casket and the baby is kicking me. My Dad did an amazing job. I know that he literally put his tears into this. My mom calls us yesterday and was worried that we wouldn't like something about the casket, and to come take a look at it, if we felt we could. So today, I stopped by to see what she was so worried about. I don't know how I could possibly be disappointed by anything! It was beautiful and perfect! My mom had finished the inside of the casket and thought, because I like things simple, that I might think it was "over-the-top", in her words. I think that if my parents are doing something so amazing as this, I don't have the right to complain. I really fought to keep the tears back. I did okay until we started talking about what to do for the funeral. Then I realized that there really isn't much time left. I don't wish my situtaion on anyone. Anyway...I take pictures of everything, so, here are a few pictures of the casket...
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Saturday was the "fest". Brinley had a blast! The best part, EVERYTHING is free! YEAH!
She got her face painted by a 10 year old, i recommend that if you go into the face painting business you have more than 5 minutes of experience. She did the worst job, but Brinley was happy. It is supposed to be a butterfly...hmmm!
She painted her dad a great picture, which she has taped to our bedroom wall. I love kid art!The Masterpiece.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Thursday, September 20, 2007
My appointment went well, although I have gained enough weight that I will be on a diet for at least a year after the baby is born. The heartbeat is 140, and it seems that the baby is still breach. I also had to do the glucose test. (yum...that delicious bottle of extra sweet sunkist soda flavored drink that just hits the spot when you are feeling really crappy to begin with.) I hate that test. And can't they at least give you something to do for an hour while you wait? I guess that it was okay having a normal appointment for once out of the last...oh...six.
I have to also mention how much I have loved having this rainy weather. It has been hot here and I am glad to see 60 degrees. It just reminds me of how close Fall is. If you don't live in Spokane, you are missing out on some beautiful scenery. I will have to post pictures when the leave start to fall in Manito Park in about a month. It is also the time of year for hot cocoa, (Brinley and I are hot cocoa fanatics) , going to Greenbluff to get our pumpkins and apples, playing in the leaves at Manito Park, bundling up in sweaters, decorating for Halloween (Brinley is obsessed with Halloween)...I love this time of year.
Friday, September 14, 2007
when we found out we were pregnant, we were excited but, but at the same time, a little scared. This is my 7th pregnancy! We have a 4 year old, Brinley, and lost 5 by miscarraige by the 13th week. Getting past the first trimester is a big relief for me. I have to be on Prometrium, a synthetic progestrone, and 81mg. asprin (but that is wether i am preggo or not). So when we got past that stage with this baby, we were beyond happy.
The pregnancy was going well, until the 19th week (friday the 13th, to be exact) when we had an ultrasound. They found some things that were a concern, so they scheduled another ultrasound a few days later with a specialist. We found out the baby had polycystic kidneys and that there was little to none amniotic fluid. It came as quite the shock to us, not know what that meant for the baby. They then told us that because of the kidney problem, the baby can't produce urine. amniotic fluid is 95% urine. The baby usually breathes in the amniotic fluid to mature the lungs. So not only did the kidneys not function, but the lungs aren't developing, giving the baby very little chance for survival outside the womb. There are other problems because of the kidneys, the heart has an enlarged ventracle, and a thickening of the wall, also the cord has 2 vessels not 3. That is the short version...
So here i am at 29 weeks, with a baby in breach position (after 4 ultrasounds, we wtill don't know what we are having, and now won't be able to find out). Iwill more likely go to full term, but it seems so weird to think that in 11 weeks, i will have to prepare a funeral for my baby and not bring it home from the hospital, along with dealing with the holidays.
Brinley giving loves. She loves feeling the baby kick.
As I get closer to my due date, Dec. 2nd, i will post more about the different doctors we have met and will be working with, and about this awesome program called Forget Me Not (they are amazing people).
By the way, for anyone who has questions, I am happy to answer ALL questions, i have been asked just about everything.
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
I thought I would get a little bit sad, but she had been so excited about going, that I really couldn't be and since they feed her breakfast there, it is kinda nice for me not to try and force Brinley to eat something, other than hot cocoa, because she just doesn't like to eat breakfast. So here are a few pictures...
the outfit she picked out herself.
when Brinley let's me actually take pictures of her, she likes to pose, so here is her backpack with a twirl.
MOOOOMMMM! Enough pictures already!
Millwood School!Matt went to this school in 4th grade, so it brought back a lot of memories for him. They really haven't changed anything!
Sunday, September 9, 2007
Cody found something at the fair too. Guess what.
Brinley loves to visit the fire trucks, we got to tour fire truck number 2 on her 2nd birthday, and since then, she makes sure to point them out. We actually live just outside the little city of Millwood.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Brinley loves to dress herself, but it has to be a dress or just her undies. So last Sunday, after we got home from church, she wanted to change her clothes. This is the outfit she picked out. Stripes go well with argyle print, right? She was so proud of herself, she posed for me. Can't wait to see what she picks out for the first day of preschool.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Thanks Kim for the recipe! Delicioso!
Saturday, September 1, 2007
Brinley found a "basil"nut (i'm not sure what a basil nut is, but my daughter has her own vocabulary). She said that the basil nut comes from the basil animals and they eat the top off and it beomes a basil nut. (to have that imagination again) I asked if I could take a picture of it and she said sure, but she didn't want to be in it. Did you know that if you close your eyes when someone is trying to take a picture of you, you magically disappear? I didn't either, but my Brinley knows this. She "sa-pears" though.
I will just say, there is never a way to take a good picture of someone eating a frozen banana on a stick. they taste good though.
And of course, chicken on a stick...and rice. Brinley's favorite.
just being silly.
This is what Pig Out was like this year. I think the busiest year they have had. This is only one of the food rows.
You have to have a huckleberry ice cream cone to finish off the day. Brinley loves ice cream, but not as much as the cone.