Tuesday, November 10, 2009


My sweet little Olivia,
Today you should be celebrating your 2nd birthday.
You are missed.
You are a part of our lives every single day.
Two years have gone by so fast. I can't believe its been that long. I sat here tonight looking through all of her photos. I cried...and even smiled a little. She was such a tiny little thing. I can't believe how much of Sarah I see in Olivia. I know Sarah knows her. I won't let her forget, either. Brinley is good to remind us. As much as I ache to hold and cuddle my sweet baby, I go would go through it all again. This beautiful girl has brought some great blessings into our life, and others. She is an amazing little girl. There are so very many things that I would have never had the chance to do or experience if it wasn't for Olivia. I believe that no matter how hard the trials we face, it's all about the attitude we have going through them. Some things we just don't have contol over. I'm not sure what the day has planned for us. I can't really say we are going to do anything, but there is no school and so I am sure for Brinley's sake, something will be done. We will be visiting her grave and even leaving a treat for her woodlawn friends...that I know... and I'm pretty sure that there will also be some random acts of kindness around Spokane too.
I wish this was a happy birthday. Do you call it a sad birthday? I'm not really sure what to call it. I hate calling it an anniversary...the anniversary fo her life and death? I guess it's her rememberance day.

I love you Olivia! I miss you and wish you were apart of this crazy life we lead.

I try to imagine you thrown into the mix of things. A 2 year old and a 1 year old...wow, I'm not sure what to think about that. I think that you and Sarah would have grown up to be the best of friends, and have the fights like my sister, Julie, and I used to.


Rachel Berry said...

Olivia is so beautiful Arah, this is such a sweet post, it even had me crying. Isn't it such a blessing to know that Families are Forever.


DeAnne said...

You never cease to amaze me. I love your attitude. Isn't it a blessing to know you will have little Olivia FOREVER!

Karen said...

Happy Birthday Sweet Olivia...You are truly an amazing spirit and I can tell you are close to your family everyday...Your Mom and Dad are wonderful people and we consider it a blessing to have them in our lives...Your sisters are the sweetest little girls and im sure they feel you close to them...I feel so luckey to have met you and held you for a short time...I know you and Sierra are great friends...Tell her we love her and miss her...Keep looking out for your family...
Love forever,
the Pixler Family

Marnie said...

I can't imagine how wonderful the day will be when a child and her parents are to be reunited.

Thank you for sharing. She is beautiful.

: ) Paula said...

She's an angel. A precious little angel.

Molly Bice-Jackson said...

Sweet little one. I don't know how I found your blog (are you on the Angels blog with me?)

God Bless you. She is precious.


Becky said...

What a beautiful post and rememberance of your sweet Olivia. You, and your family are in our thoughts at this time of year!

Anonymous said...

My thoughts go to you and your family on this day. It made me cry, reading your blog. Your were lucky to have brought her into this world and spend those precious moments with her. At least you know she is safe with her father in heaven now.

Kera said...

sweet little olivia. it's amazing that someone could come into your life for such a short time and have such a tremendous affect. how incredible her little spirit must be. thinking of you.

Anonymous said...

Hey, I just stumbled upon your blog, and saw this post. And seeing this post, its really awesome to see the amount of joy you still get from the memory of Olivia. I'm sure she's looking down from heaven, so grateful for a mum like you. Rock on!